Easter and Stupid Friggin' Food Aversion

Our girls are very excited for Easter. They are counting down the days, which is a little harder for Kate because Time is such an abstract concept. The calendar helps and she knows it will be very soon. 

The Easter bunny will hide eggs just like in any other home, and the girls will run around collecting them with bright eyes and excitement at the race. The difference is, Kate won't eat them, or any other Easter treat that comes her way, because her food aversion is too much. Not only could she not eat a food that was NOT on her list, which has diminished in recent months, she will likely not be able to eat much at all on a day where there is so much excitement and so much unpredictability.  

She eats AERO bars, you know. How random is that? For some reason, that chocolate is okay. It has been since she was very little and it's a food that has never dropped off her list of few foods. Walking through the grocery store today, I browsed the aisles where the Easter Bunny might shop and found myself feeling sad that none of these sweet treats would appeal to our Kate. There are worse problems I know. How silly of me to get emotional in the candy aisle at the grocery store, today. So what, her palette is limited, she doesn't seem to mind. This little girl will wake up and be thrilled to collect eggs with her sister and see what the Easter Bunny brought her but I still felt that bit of sadness that comes along when you least expect it. I wish she could enjoy these things with us. I wish autism didn't always have to get in her way. It reminded me of Halloween. A night she adores, as she runs around collecting bag after bag of treats she will never eat. I feel selfish for allowing myself to be sad because my little girl won't/can't eat the sweet treats. 

I bought her an AERO bar, just in case that Bunny forgets and I'll place it on the chair where the Rabbit always leaves her a new book and some Easter shoes. It looked pitiful in my bag next to the very decorative and gourmet treats I bought for her sister but it is what she likes and what will make her happy, and it should make me happy, too. 

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